Deciding

When you like a guy who has a kid, you want this work out so badly.All you’ve ever dreamed of is being a mother to a little miracle.

Jealousy is an evil feeling, that takes over your mind and all other feelings.

You want THAT to be your kid with him, but there is nothing you can do about it.

You want to be first in the relationship but you can’t when he has a kid, his kid comes first.

You don’t know what roll to play, or if even they even want more kids.

Everyone around you is either getting married or having kids, and your stuck here alone feeling jealous with anger.

All I feel right now is jealousy….

Right now my gut says no, but let’s wait.
I don’t want to throw away something good.